One Step At a Time

If things weren't the way they are
When loved ones weren't so far
If life would have been written differently
If things weren't so ugly
Up to the destiny it is they say
Why does mine feel so wrong in every way
Good things do happen I won't say they dont
Sometimes good things happen at such bad time that it loses its goodness, they haunt.

I wish I cared less about it
But it's something so out of control
I wish I was caught right in middle, i don't want to fall
I have fallen so many times that the ground seems to be my friend
The ground helps me get up again, I realize it's Not yet the end.

My life painted on a huge canvas tells so many stories
Anticipating every chapter, hoping the end will bring in some glory
Why is it have to be me every single time
I would hunt for answers, I never even commited smallest crime
My own life has become a running picture in front of my eyes
I sometimes play a part in it, I feel just as an helpless observer sometimes.

I keep on walking the path, more exhausting it gets
I wonder how would it be when happiness is at every step.
I know one day will come for me just as it comes for everyone
Someday I will look back at my huddles thinking "dusted and done"
I do know if I dont find happiness at every step
It wont stop me from getting what I want to get

I know my chapters are harder than most, my chapters may drag along which I loath
My whole life is a book yet to be written
It's a matter of time I will suck out my happiness wherever it is hidden
Some memories I wish I could have captured
Missing some moments makes my heart injured.

I know some pain will never go away
But I am here not to give up I am here to stay
I've learnt presence is not the epitome of happiness
I've learnt laughing is not always real expression of happiness.
My happiness laid in little things that I've missed in life
But I will move on and on because this is not the end
This is my story I am willing to write.

I LOVE YOU❤Long Distance Relationship❤

Since the day I've held your hand
My heart knew I've found my man
We grew closer when there were miles between us
If only you were further enough that I could take a bus

Years passed not knowing when we could actually meet
With every passing day, we became each others heartbeat
Things usually did go wrong
Through dark and light, we shall always remain strong

Till today we dont know what our future actually holds
Yet I know for sure you're in every phase of my life as it unfolds
You're my strength to do better everyday
I am your courage to grow greater in every way

The kind of love we have can never fade away
Withstanding every hurdles coming our way
We shall hold hands and stand stronger than ever
One day, that happiest day of our life we will be together
And from that day onwards we will remain together forever.

PurpleUnicorn246 

Destroy your Inhibition.

Destroy the negativity
Consume last ounce of energy that surrounds you
Break out of the shell that encapsulates your growth

Observe,
You are far better than you think you are
Look into the eyes of that insecurity
Hold it, embrace it, step on it and move up your ladder

Every comment that frustrates you becomes a stepping stone
Let go of that growing anger.
Free your soul.
Give yourself that break you deserve, that laugh you deserve, that cry you deserve.
THAT LIFE YOU DESERVE

Design your best possible present
Destroy your inhibitions
Reach out,
That best possible life awaits you.

PurpleUnicorn246

EXAM TIME- HAVE 1 MONTH UNTIL EXAM DAY

Hi readers,

So all annual events are being postponed/cancelled but guess what's still on??!!! YES!! Exams. **feels heart palpitations**

My this blog is to help you out😀😀

Let's get right to it! As I have 1 month left from tomorrow to prepare for my exam, well its first time ever that I am home 24/7 during exam prep time.

There are tons of you tube videos that would tell us how to prepare for exam. Most of these guys overwhelm us because THEY'RE SOOOOOO PREPARED!!

Anyways, here are some tips for all those panicking like me right now.

1. Breath, there is still some time left. It’s easy to procrastinate but now fear is taking over.  We have to use the time that’s left very wisely. You must have used up all your time to watch movies and chill so time to give that up now and dedicate it to studying otherwise you’re screwed.

2. Arrange your notes- if you already have them ready- GREAT. If not, go to your moodle or check with your friends. Arrange all the subjects in order.
This gives you a sense of control.

3. Arrange your study area and clean your room. This provides a good vibe and you feel in control of your environment.



4. Get bunch of instrumental music so you don’t sing along and waste time and also block out the noise around you.

5. Uninstall those social media app even if you install again every night. If you have better control
then log out or you can use app control applications which locks 🔒 the application and you cannot
use it around a time frame that you choose.

6. Stop answering calls and chatting along. Say NO. Because there will be a lot of distraction like, hey let’s watch this movie kinda thing. Say NO 

7. Don’t be hungry while studying because that’s distraction!!!!!!! If you live alone, do a meal prep beforehand. Don’t waste time cooking everyday. Have healthy snacks at hand ALL THE TIME!!!

8. Acknowledge what you know and you don’t know. Usually we tend to forget how much we have to study and spend alottt of time on one thing. Make a list of things you don’t know and spend more time on that. Spend less time to review what you already know.


                  




                                                                                        



9. Use different methods of revision tools. If it’s memorizing use flash cards, if application then solve question. I’ll talk on studying tips in my next blog.

10. Keep changing your study area. One place can get too boring and you start hating it. So you can study harder subject on your study table while easier one on the couch. Ailso go outside, sit on the balcony- KEEP STUDYING!!! Even while on toilet **not joking**


11. Have a to-do list and cancel them off as you go along!! Soon you’ll tackle more then you thought ou could!!!

12. There’s no fixed time of studying. Either a night owl or morning person. Point is to get studying done!! So whenever you’re awake use your time. Also do not sleep more than 8 hours!!!! 

13. Start solving past years paper. Divide exam papers among your friend circle and answer together. DIVIDE AND CONQUER 

14. Stay healthy!!!!Drink alooot of water becaus it’s easy to get headache and feel sick. 

 

15. Workout, talk to someone, watch sermons and keep your spirit uplifted because you need every ounce of motivation to nail this exam. 

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Natures Annihilation

They've started walking guarded

Keeping afar from those unknown and those even known 

Some show pure humility and kindness 

Some ignorant and remain vile 

Nights becoming more silent 

Sky with no flying jets anymore 

Seas becoming calm with only waves crushing against one another 

Temples, mosques, churches stands emptied 

All prayers now said from heart 

Easter's sermons 

Ramadans fastings and alms giving 

All men's customs stands still 

Now all prayers whispered from hearts 

Now the holy place becomes the soul 

Faith over religious differences 

Because all pray to survive 

All pray to overcome this natures annihilation.

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Thankful!

Look!! sky is getting clearer

Breath!! air is getting fresher 

Listen!! More birds flying and chirping around 

Look!! mountains becoming more greener 

No more hazy smoke climbing up into the atmosphere 

The ocean dances with clear water 

Our earth is happier as cleaner it gets

The forests recovering all its lost assets

Feel!! Your soul breathing freely once again 

Embrace the gift of time 

Become better, become greater 

Accentuate that talent hidden in you 

Heal with the world

Best in you is yet to come.

PurpleUnicorn246 

Letting Go

The essential master of all
Time stays and everything moves forward
What's yours today
Is someone else's tomorrow

Attached to a material now
With time it remains the same though the value goes down
For something the heart cries today
But the time passes on and the tears dries up

Today's grief may become tomorrows reason to smile
Yesterday's sadness may be tomorrows happiness
All bounded by time
Strongest wave coming to shore
Sunrise or sunset.
Every season either winter or fall

Let go of that heavy weight
Your heart has suffered enough
Let the time heal you
Next chapter awaits you
Let go and go on
Something greater will come with time.

PurpleUnicorn246 

Disneyland-Keep dreaming

Magnificent towers stood proud

Shimmering ferris wheel with spectacular rides breaking all bounds

The air with sweet aroma makes you feel at home while far
All our childhood memories knitted together blooming together on the land of Orlando, Florida

The gates open to welcome you into the wonder that unfolds
Never have I ever seen a sight more majestic than the disney world.
Sweet candies fill the air
Kids running everywhere

Zoom vroom the rides go all around
Looong cues with excited faces are found
Tomorrowland takes you on an adventurous ride
Not forgetting the jungle cruise and "it's a small world" exhibiting the worldwide

So much to see, filling up my heart with memories
While filling tummy on funnel cakes, chocolate shakes and candies
Before you realize your feet burns and soles hurt more than I can say
Just as you see another parade making it's way
Boooo!! says the hunted mansion
If you see a flying witch sit still, dont you run

Ding dong ding it's almost 9pm
This is when the castle goes dim before the start of the real glam
Kids on piggy backs,
As we all stand in rain on ponchos and filling up on snacks
Never i knew what's waiting for me will be an experience of a lifetime
3..2...1.. the luminous lights fill the castle, the feeling was so sublime
Fireworks fireworks fireworks, every eye glowing
Every song sung together in solidarity, as one

It was one of the most magical nights of my life till now
Every aspect makes you say wow
From Aladins "A whole new world" to Dumbo and Olaf
Not forgetting the evil magic by Jaafar and Ursula also the brave Marinda

As we held hand and stood,
Singing and swaying together, feeling so happy so grateful
Every song chiming with one message, every character with one lesson
Keep dreaming,
Keep dreaming until you're alive

PurpleUnicorn246

LOVE.

"A partner is one who DOES NOT COMPLETE you but COMPLEMENTS you" -Karishma Mudaliar, Suva Fiji 

There’s no way you can ever be a hundred percent sure that he/she is the one. You don’t want to be sure. It’s a journey you know you are willing to take with someone and unveil all the uncertainties as it comes your way. Dating is quite tricky, one date can be enough to know if you want to be with that person for the rest of your life.  If you force yourself forward just because you need someone in your life, it’s futile.

Love is enough to allow someone in your life. Yet to keep complementing each other for life requires love, respect, honor, communication, knowledge, security, trust. Before one can expect to look for these in a partner, look at your own self. Are you willing to give all this back? Are you willing to be selfless, are you willing to be self sacrificing? It’s such a huge thing yet can be achieved so easily if one is willing.

Life comes in different phases. Some phase can go on for long years yet feels short lived and some can be only for a year but feels like ages. Contentment and faith helps you navigate your journey through your phases. You have to be willing to love yourself on every phase. Just like a new chapter of an exciting book is our life phases. Each chapter has to be read with enthuse, discovering your own self, learning about yourself and loving yourself. Then only will you reveal the phase of love in your life. Once you complete yourself you will find the one and recognize the one who will love you, grow with you. A broken heart cannot give love back unless it heals itself. A healed past nourishes a healthy future. A content heart will love without expectation and receive everlasting love. 

Love is like different seasons, sometimes too chilly sometimes warm and sunny. 

The love of my life has loved me everyday. Everyday we learn, grow in passion, we are vulnerable in a promising relationship while we continue our 7 years of long distance relationship. What we have is love and much more.

 We’ve been dating for seven years and met thrice. Always happy always blessed. Xx. 

PurpleUnicorn246 

STUDYING while In Quarantine- Covid 19

Yes it's hard. And yes its okay. But we cant take chance. We cant lay all day because that's not getting things done!

My first 2-3 days were very focused, motivating then **bam** it's gone. Watching movie, eating, chilling and what not. But I am a medical student. Too long of chill is too deadly for me.. be it high school or any major you're doing. If You dont bust your ass, you're a lost course. 

So let me congratulate you firstly, because if you're reading this, you're probably looking for the long lost motivation. 

I wish I had a magic spell but ugh. 

Well for some motivation videos watch: 

Strive to fit, Jack Edwards- my favorites

https://youtu.be/z8AFsD2Ew1k

https://youtu.be/TLA8E5IL8as

If you need a partner while studying: 

You can watch numerous "watch with me" videos on youtube 

https://youtu.be/cIXCnZ_jg30

Some tips from me: 

1. Make a to-do list but dont limit it, as exaggerated it may look put everything you have to do in a day. 

2. Wake up as early as possible. The more alone and uninterrupted you are the more work you're gonna get things done. 

3. Treat this quarantine as study break, and think that you have a exam right after it. 

Now START PREPARING! 

4. Use apps like- Anki(studying with flashcards is most effective method, it's called active learning where you train your brain to remember alot of information by looking at few words on a card) 

5. Read-Think-Write: method i use because I cant infuse alot of my notes into flashcards. So after reading 1 page I just highlight my pointers, say it out loud in my mother-tongue. Then flip the page and write through my memory. 

6. Read some books.. The Silent Patient, When Breath Becomes Air, Sydney Sheldon The Angel of the Dark. 

My current read: How to win friends and influence people. 

7. Pomodoro Timer- 25minutes of focus, with effective work then 5 minutes rest(usually watch a 5minutes video on you tube) then back to 25 minutes studying. 

8. Eat well, 8 hours of sleep. Drink water. 

9. Exercise, relax. 

10. Pat your back because you're trying!! 

That's all from me. Lots of love. Xx 

PurpleUnicorn246 

STRONG!

I have to be strong
Its gonna take my all
But, I have to be strong
It's hard it twists me
It makes me feel left alone
But I have to be STRONG!

I am in this by myself
No one controls my emotion
I cant let it control me
I cant let it rule me
I cant let it play with my mind
I need to pull myself together
To give in is wrong!!
I have to be STRONG!

I dont have to go back to what I was
I have to become even better
I have to overcome this NOW!
I have to fight this off
I have to be strong!

This is my hustle with life
This is my time to show
This is my time to glow
This is my time to put all my strength together
This is my time to show who I really am
I have to go on and on and on
I have to be STRONG!

I cant cry anymore
I cant loathe anymore
I cant waste my time anymore
I have to grow out of my shell
I have to become a bigger person than I am
I have to be STRONG!

I will smile again
I will laugh again
I will shine again
Why am I even sad why am I even miserable
That time has gone
Right now I have to be STRONG!

I need to focus on today
I need to focus on what I have
What I have is better than what i had yesterday
I cant loath the past in any way

My blessing coming to me is even greater
I will pull myself together
I have to do this on my own
I will see the bigger picture
I know I can and I know I will!

Back to reality and back to moving forward
I am greater than my fears
I am going to fight my tears
I will make my future glow
I dont need fake, I dont need toxin that would make my life blow
This is why I take control right now right here
This is where now right now I declare 
!!** I AM STRONG**!!

Dedicated to all those struggling with depression, eating disorder and all different mental health issue that might be taking a toll on you. 

Dedicated to those who lost a loved one.

Dedicated to those who are battling medical condition.

Dedicated to our first responders of covid 19, our pillar of strength!!

PurpleUnicorn246

Uncertainty - In the Midst of Covid-19

Dates were fixed

Plans were made 

like a crushing storm it came 

And Everything started to fade 

What tomorrow holds no one knows 

Although smiling the fear in every heart grows 

We can see but still in dark 

Every wonders man made has lost its spark 

Everyday was life lived  in a chaos

Hustle and grind, 

Moving forward in every mind 

But like a powerful pounce of the lion it made 

Now lying in the silence of the night 

We all wait.. 

PurpleUnicorn246 

Life with Saddle Bag Fat

Hello there mate! Have you ever heard of something called saddle bag fat or do you have this chunk of fat that hangs off your outer hip area making your ass look wide. Well you’re not alone. Ive had those since I was 15. It started off by giving me a nice hour glass figure when I was 14 but I was CRITICIZED FOR BEING TOO FAT FOR MY AGE!!! Truth be told, I WASNT fat then but I am NOW! sigh!!

Little Flashback, I’ve never actually noticed being stared at but once in high school one of my guy friends teased me and pointed at it and said “Hey what’s that” and I got infuriated. I guess that’s how i actually started to notice girls staring at me. Every pair of eyes 👀 passing by me if looked at me first they’d see my “dumbbells” (that’s what I call them now) and then stare at my face then look back at the my “dumbbells”. Same went for when I go to town. So many stares. I started to hate myself and especially that part of me. It was awful for me as a 15 year old when One kid once literally asked me if he can “touch it”. That’s when I started to stop eating because I viewed myself as flaw-ful and FAT. (I’ll update on my weight loss journey in another blog)

Okay enough of Gloomies. Now fast forward to some discoveries!

Then one day I went to meet my grandma. As she sat beside me, lord have mercy I saw dumbbells!!!! Was it like inherited thing or what? If it were inherited then why doesn’t my sister have it. Well I did some research and found out it can be inherited and is related to high estrogen in some females. The hereditary part gave me such a relief!

It wasn’t my fault I had the saddle bag fat. It isn't your fault either! I named them dumbbells for a more


personal feel and started to make myself accept them.
Fast forward to University- when I was year 3 medical student and as I was rotating in the psychiatry ward my lecturer called me to have some chat. What she told me knocked my confidence and broke my heart. She gestured towards my dumbbells and said “you have to cover them when you’re in the hospital! We don’t want to provoke any patient”

That’s when I had the moment of realization— I got my dumbbells because it’s hereditary and yeah I
kinda loved eating! But if I choose to still have them, that will be doubtlessly my fault. And so I started to diet. Started intermittent fasting, it worked for me but my dumbbells were still there. I was too conscious to enter the gym so my then lovely sister in law gifted me her elliptical workout machine. And I started to workout! I worked out for 5 months and completely stopped eating rice and drank 3L a day and I lost 10kgs!!! From 109kg my highest weight to 98kg. It was wonderful!
But my saddlebags were still there!

I’ll update on my weight loss journey in my next blog! Keep reading ❤️
Let me know if you have saddlebag fats/ dumbbells. How do you feel about them?

Love.. xx on left me in 2017 on right me in 2020

PurpleUnicorn246 

Hello let’s get some motivation

So let’s get this straight. I am always thinking of doing something new. Full of weird ideas. Just like this blog. I usually don’t keep on track for long. Just as I did for writing a book, painting, poem writing, gym😛. Now in quarantine so my school also kinda came to a halt.

Trying to wake up at reasonable time then eating right, keeping my hands off the junk, study forlonghours, workout, self care, to stop after just 1 episode. Arrrrhhhhh. Was it hard before or after quarantin. Hard to crack that. I have to constantly remind myself that i am not on a holiday😂 A lot of you must be getting bored out of your heads right now but seriously if you plan it right I think 2020s gift of recharging ourselves will play out in our favor.

Some motivation for my fellow quarantiners.
1. Let’s take one day at a time. Seriously you’re not alone.
2. It could have been a lot worse. Even if you feel trapped right now it’ll get better real soon❤️
3. Words have power, start saying good things only.
4. Students start making those pending short notes, little chunks everyday will go a long way.
we have 24 hours all to ourself now. No one to tell what to do and what not to do(well except for if you’re in an extended family and are about to go nuts and breach the lockdown just to escape from every bloodlinked relative of yours)
5. Watch those motivation videos. Joel Osteen words gives whole new feels.
6. Zumbaaaaa is best aerobic exercise and girls you will feeel good!!!!
7. Make those sugar scrubs with some coconut oil and give your body some nice exfoliating care.
8. We are in this together. We are all slowing down with our plans. But it’s gonna be alright.
9. Watch just 1 movie a day. Make it worth it, make it like a reward to a hardworking day.



Thanks for reading. SHARE HOW YOUR DAY GOES IN THIS QUARANTINE!!

and let me know if i wrote well😟
I’ve started this blog to just share about my weird ideas and discover how ubiquitously unique we all are. Stay safe. Stay healthy.


#faithoverfear

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