On day 1 they fell in love
I say they but now it feels it was just her
By day 2 they had so much connection it felt so real so good to be true
She fell hard she fell crazy for him
By day hundredth she borne her baby girl
This part she always imagined differently hoping she already had the ring on her finger
There was no ring which didn't bother much
But he wasn't there too..
Her head has always had a blurry image of him
Standing far away.. so far she couldn't see his face, far enough she couldn't tell if it was actually him or it's just her illusion of him.
Days passed on..clock ticked by a man came in and went out of her life..
This man she thought he was but he was always a little boy.
The treasure the precious treasure she thought she and her little girl were to him now feels like they were just his toy
21 years of living but she nurtured her actual life for 9 months
Many many days of wandering around behind him
but today is different, today a little finger holds her hand spinning around with her behind him
She walked everyday being in a maze of darkness that she may find him
Saying no to his wishes never made her happy as she wished maybe something or other might make him like her a little more..
When she looked into his eyes she swears she found a good soul inside
Everyone might have said no but she was too adamant to deny it
She always believed she could mould him into the better one he always wanted to be
She always believed anything is possible if trying harder is the key.
She decided to give it her heart and soul
She decided to allow his right over her girl
She decided to move places.. even if it meant everyday she picked his shoes and sock
She decided to give in everything to make it work.
Her heart said nothing could be a better place for her girl to grow in than in his family..
She made her leave her family to be part of his
Mother is a word not accomplished by the labor and delivery
mother is not a word it is a duty they fulfilled
For her girl she carried the badge of a mother but her peii calmed octavia every night she was away
Her ratu fed Octavia bottle and waited for her to fall asleep every night after an overtime at work
Her maa her maa nurtured her girl everyday after she borne her..
Her tasa went till year 10 and was 19 when he bought his niece a pair of shoe that wont fit as her papa walked around with maa trying not to envy the love Octavia got..
Her girl has all the love of this world but somewhere she convinced herself that he might give her more..
She convinced herself that what Octavia had was not enough if he wasnt around
Somewhere in her heart she knew she wanted it to happen for her too..
Call it greed call it stupidity
For her it felt right it felt good and it felt fair and square..
She offered him chances and chances
She fell way below her self respect to uplift him
She got bruised and as her heart bled he said sorry
She believed her girl would change his heart and he would fall in love with them just as she fell in love with him
Until she started walking
She walked and she walked holding her 6 month old in her arms tight protectively
She walked few miles on road but she has walked a lot further from him
Now when she looks and he is still there far away where he was before where she couldn't recognize if it was really him..
Then she realizes he had never moved towards her
She always walked back and forth making herself convinced he was the one getting closer but he was just at one place, stationary.
A year back and 10 years from now she could have done the same over and over again just so he felt closer
But today she sees a little finger entangled with hers.. a little finger which she cannot let go
She always thought her world was him but today he was nothing..
Today as her baby hugs her thinking she is the last thing in her world
She hugs her baby back knowing that her baby and only her baby is her whole world..
Thursday, May 28, 2020
Sunday, May 3, 2020
Rising Domestic Violence During Covid-19
It went right across her face
She felt an immense rush of disgrace
It had been happening quite frequent now
She has to survive it everyday somehow
Run away! Move out! But where
To fight off and rebel but would she dare
Tangled up with her is her little one
Scared and screaming inside as her dad hits her mum
A monster! A gruesome monster she lives with
Worse than a beast
At any point, he swings his fist.
Forcing himself on her every day and night
There are children, little sweet children, killed because of this fight
You're in your home and you hear the screams
Shutting the drapes, locking your door
That monster is real for her what you may see in your dream
Dont turn a blind eye anymore
Dont just pray for it to go
Allow her shelter, report the matter, please dont wait.
Only we have the power to save her before it's too late
She felt an immense rush of disgrace
It had been happening quite frequent now
She has to survive it everyday somehow
Run away! Move out! But where
To fight off and rebel but would she dare
Tangled up with her is her little one
Scared and screaming inside as her dad hits her mum
A monster! A gruesome monster she lives with
Worse than a beast
At any point, he swings his fist.
Forcing himself on her every day and night
There are children, little sweet children, killed because of this fight
You're in your home and you hear the screams
Shutting the drapes, locking your door
That monster is real for her what you may see in your dream
Dont turn a blind eye anymore
Dont just pray for it to go
Allow her shelter, report the matter, please dont wait.
Only we have the power to save her before it's too late
Saturday, May 2, 2020
What is Beauty?
I've always made the habit of "rating" beauty according to how a woman attracts man physically and vise versa. I cannot believe how sexist, objective and downright insane my opinion had been from so many years until now.
Perfection has been made ideal beauty by mass media that influences millions across the globe. You have perfect dentures, hair, skin tone, body shape, nose, jawline, breasts, buttock, hip, muscles, HEIGHT!! Flawless armpits, hair only on head and no where else, nails done, fuller lips, bigger eyes.
My list could go on and on with one constant factor- PHYSICAL APPEARANCE.
There's so much natural beauty around the world that we all recognize except for one- Human beings.
So what is beauty?
I did a survey on my facebook and got numerous comments on beauty. Alot of people say- beauty is what's inside, the personality. It's so much easier to say so but do we practise what we preach? The ideology on beauty has become so superficial today that we all feel the urge to use filters/ makeups/ steroids.Like many I am also guilty of that. It's what attracts the eye. But when it comes to choosing a partner to spend the rest of your life, how long will the fading beauty have the power to be the foundation of your relationship?
Do I need peace to sleep or six packs!!!
For more clarity I searched the definition of "Beauty" on the internet which said " combination of qualities, such as shape, colour, or form, that pleases the aesthetic senses, especially the sight" . I was baffled as to how a search engine like google which is used by millions fills up the page with pictures denoting "physical perfection". Cant beauty be a mother breastfeeding her child, cant beauty be a doctor treating a covid-19 patient, cant beauty be a dog sheltering her puppies..
We are forced to settle into the preconceived ideas of mass media about beauty. Then with time these ideas has now become our way of thinking and this must stop!! Changes comes from within and the ability to see beyond the superficial beauty is an art that most of us lack. But everything can be achieved if one has the will to try.
So if you think that physical beauty is what matters most- you're too superficial.
Start appreciating how you've been created. Your teeth may be crooked but do not give in to the society to make you think that it's not normal. You may have dark armpits, you may have dark inner thighs, stretch mark, not as tall as your friends. The physical appearance is something short-term and wouldn't take you too far in your journey to grow if other qualities that builds a persons personality isnt present. Hence to grow and develop as a person, as a partner, as a friend one has to go beyond physical appearance. Accepting yourself and moulding to become healthier physically, mentally and spiritually- then you'd discover the true and everlasting happiness and contentment from within.
Navneel Prasad- Labasa Fiji
"For me personally, I define beauty according to personality of a person..not by colour, height etc..
BUT, 80% or more go for physical appearance....
Bahut moti haye, bahut kariya ladkee haye, height mein thora chota haye ladka...etc...
Its all about perception of individuals.."
Evelyn Priya- Suva Fiji.
"Beauty in the real world is all about how you look physically..your skin colour..your height...your weight...your general appearance. At a first glance this is how people judge how beautiful one is. I have been body shamed quiet a number of times...being called fat...huge arms..my height doesn't match my weight and things like that. Overall the society accepts slim and trim as beauty with fair skin. There are very few people who actually look deeper than that."
Ashneel Prasad- Sydney Australia
To most people in this day and age, beauty is the physical appearance! I'm sure we all have been there and judged the book by its cover. If you dont agree with me your kidding yourself 🥱
To me "now" beauty is not what you look like or what you have achieved in life, Beauty is the legacy that you leave behind 🙏
Sandeep Niranjan- Suva, Fiji
"Being beautiful means to be loving of all. A quality we see less outside a person and more of within them."
Karthik Sette- MA, USA
"Beauty is a noun describing a person, place or object. So in a person beauty is his/her soul, in an object beauty is what it is made of, its architecture. If one goes for physical appearance they're looking for something temporary, they will always end up alone. If you want something for the rest of your life you have to go beyond the outer beauty"
Perfection has been made ideal beauty by mass media that influences millions across the globe. You have perfect dentures, hair, skin tone, body shape, nose, jawline, breasts, buttock, hip, muscles, HEIGHT!! Flawless armpits, hair only on head and no where else, nails done, fuller lips, bigger eyes.
My list could go on and on with one constant factor- PHYSICAL APPEARANCE.
There's so much natural beauty around the world that we all recognize except for one- Human beings.
So what is beauty?
I did a survey on my facebook and got numerous comments on beauty. Alot of people say- beauty is what's inside, the personality. It's so much easier to say so but do we practise what we preach? The ideology on beauty has become so superficial today that we all feel the urge to use filters/ makeups/ steroids.Like many I am also guilty of that. It's what attracts the eye. But when it comes to choosing a partner to spend the rest of your life, how long will the fading beauty have the power to be the foundation of your relationship?
Do I need peace to sleep or six packs!!!
For more clarity I searched the definition of "Beauty" on the internet which said " combination of qualities, such as shape, colour, or form, that pleases the aesthetic senses, especially the sight" . I was baffled as to how a search engine like google which is used by millions fills up the page with pictures denoting "physical perfection". Cant beauty be a mother breastfeeding her child, cant beauty be a doctor treating a covid-19 patient, cant beauty be a dog sheltering her puppies..
We are forced to settle into the preconceived ideas of mass media about beauty. Then with time these ideas has now become our way of thinking and this must stop!! Changes comes from within and the ability to see beyond the superficial beauty is an art that most of us lack. But everything can be achieved if one has the will to try.
So if you think that physical beauty is what matters most- you're too superficial.
Start appreciating how you've been created. Your teeth may be crooked but do not give in to the society to make you think that it's not normal. You may have dark armpits, you may have dark inner thighs, stretch mark, not as tall as your friends. The physical appearance is something short-term and wouldn't take you too far in your journey to grow if other qualities that builds a persons personality isnt present. Hence to grow and develop as a person, as a partner, as a friend one has to go beyond physical appearance. Accepting yourself and moulding to become healthier physically, mentally and spiritually- then you'd discover the true and everlasting happiness and contentment from within.
Navneel Prasad- Labasa Fiji
"For me personally, I define beauty according to personality of a person..not by colour, height etc..
BUT, 80% or more go for physical appearance....
Bahut moti haye, bahut kariya ladkee haye, height mein thora chota haye ladka...etc...
Its all about perception of individuals.."
Evelyn Priya- Suva Fiji.
"Beauty in the real world is all about how you look physically..your skin colour..your height...your weight...your general appearance. At a first glance this is how people judge how beautiful one is. I have been body shamed quiet a number of times...being called fat...huge arms..my height doesn't match my weight and things like that. Overall the society accepts slim and trim as beauty with fair skin. There are very few people who actually look deeper than that."
Ashneel Prasad- Sydney Australia
To most people in this day and age, beauty is the physical appearance! I'm sure we all have been there and judged the book by its cover. If you dont agree with me your kidding yourself 🥱
To me "now" beauty is not what you look like or what you have achieved in life, Beauty is the legacy that you leave behind 🙏
Sandeep Niranjan- Suva, Fiji
"Being beautiful means to be loving of all. A quality we see less outside a person and more of within them."
Karthik Sette- MA, USA
"Beauty is a noun describing a person, place or object. So in a person beauty is his/her soul, in an object beauty is what it is made of, its architecture. If one goes for physical appearance they're looking for something temporary, they will always end up alone. If you want something for the rest of your life you have to go beyond the outer beauty"
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