It's not alot we are asking for. Isnt it our right to be together.
The uncertainty of the day makes me scared because my mind keeps wondering of the what ifs. You're stuck with me in this loop that neither one of us want to be part of. Does not mean we love each other any less but time has become so hard.
Have patience but for how long. "You've done this for 9 years". Its just two more years. It's so easily said. Words laid out effortlessly but to go through it is a rumble on it's own. As I walked along the street today I fumbled on my own feet. Soaked up in my thoughts to even realize the reality I am in right now. Have faith, grace will be upon us but when? We are waiting from so long. Everything we want to do has come to a halt. When will we start our lives?
You are not with me and maybe you wont be for next coming months or years. My mind is blank and I wish I could make a bigger difference. I am not trying hard enough. My heart aches that I am making you beg me to take that leap of faith in us. I wish you could know how badly I want to do it. I'd do it right now.
This life we spent building for so long with one principle purpose- Be happy.
But you are not with me, how could I possibly be happy.
