1. thinking how much I have to do?
2. How I WILL do it and WHY should I delay it and do something else instead.
3. Why doing something that is helpful to me as a person is less important than doing something for my family instead.
Take for example working out, everyday I have a courtroom drama in my head that ah maybe I won't work out today because I have to catch up on studying or will catch up on my house chores. This is regardless the time I spend just scrolling through Instagram which is easily an hour per day. This one hour I can still scroll through IG while on treadmill or whatever but noo noo nooooo I persist on sitting on the couch!!
I can be kind to myself and tell myself that no, I am not actually lazy which I really am not in the conventional way. I mean my house is clean, I do get done with whatever I put on my plate but what bothers is my strategy and the process of how I get things done. Oh, how frustrating it becomes when I know I have to do something yet I will battle with myself about how I shall postpone it. Yet, when it comes to eating, watching some movies or scroll through social media I become the master of surety and decision making is done within seconds. Then why oh why do I spend so much time into thinking when it comes to do things that are beneficial for me. Like, going to the gym, writing my resume, keeping up with my blog and keeping up with my podcast.
To be honest, now it is not a feeling but I know for sure that the more time we put into thinking about doing something good the more late we are going to get into accomplishing it. Maybe it is the absence of the self-confidence or believe I may have in myself about being able to do that particular thing or reach that particular goal yet by delaying it does not make things any better. Then why should I waste so much of my precious time into planning and prepping. Yes, this would be good for big decisions which need a great meta-analysis although the minute decisions that keeps our homes clean, us healthy and keeps our life uncluttered should be done like a reflex.
It always feels like a high time to stop living in my head and living out there in the real world. Make new friends and gain new experiences. There is so much that you and I are capable of achieving if we just let ourselves out of the prison of over-analyzing and over-thinking. I believe that everyday should never be repetitive and there should and must be new things or different things incorporated in our daily lives. Be that doing a new zumba dance or doing some painting. All these new things would only be possible if we allow it into our lives, right? This is only possible if we stop postponing things.
How do we allow it and what are even these new things? I can't afford travelling to some new place or pay for a daily new experience but what I can do is small things that keeps me busy and gives me a perception of an active and productive life. It can be so boring to live in the rut of repetitive life; of taking care of kids, doing daily chores and just trying to keep the laundry basket empty that we can so easily lose ourselves to these demands. The somewhat spare time at hand will surely be up as well though it is our choice to how to spend them. Either to spend it overthinking or thinking of things we can do or actually moving our bums and doing them. It doesn't have to be bungee jumping but we have to find ourselves in little things. It can start with taking a walk. Then it can be reading a few pages of a book. Or it can be a picnic just in the balcony soaking up the afternoon warmth as the sun sets over the horizon.
Lets get moving boys and girls. Lets think a little less and do a little more. You have thought enough. Now its time to live.
