My Reality

I used to think that I needed to be surrounded by many people. Friends, family, pet and what not but as I grow up I realize that alone I am somewhat happier. Don't get me wrong I don't despise humans or animals but I realize that I don't need twenty people around me to make me feel happy and excited and bring about reason and light into my life. As I have moved into the new country I left behind 25 years of my life  which had friends and family 2 seconds away. now i am mostly on my own even when i have friends here it's still not the same. That is my reality and to be honest I am kind of getting used to it because I realize I enjoy my own company. I have always enjoyed friends and being that social butterfly to bring laughter in a group but at the end of the day what matters is how much do I enjoy myself. When I come back home how much appreciative I am of myself. We get so busy just reflecting everyone else's personalities mixed with our own that we can even forget what is our own reality until we are alone and there is no one watching. That's when our thoughts, ideas and actions define the true us. There aren't many people in this world who know us in and out. Not even our spouse. I think it is just us who knows ourselves the best then why not enjoy ourselves, right? right? Everyone has different ways to be happy. For some its traveling, others maybe shopping, the rest maybe cooking or eating and some even cleaning. Some love reading, some gossiping (hehe thats okay, I do too). Just to be clear, most of us are usually can afford or even take out time for the little things. some of us are so busy working that we forgot to even have a hobby. That is okay, it's not too late even. We just gotta stop the wait for someone else or a village to make us happy or bring about reason to our lives right. It can be so, so, so hard when we see the glorious lives on instagram and snapchat of couples taking trips and people celebrating thanksgiving together but trust me my friend, those time is just for couple of hours or days. All those people return to their homes and lives after few days and are by themselves in bed and what matters is-- are they happy by themselves. No number of sweet people will ever be able to help you be happy if you are not happy by yourself. I guess what people say is actually true, happiness starts from within. Have a cup of hot chocolate and smile. I know it's not a trip to Bali but a thousand mile journey starts with a single step right. Even if you're 60 or 30-  better late than never.