Baby Boo and I--two

Why does it still feel unreal. I want you but what about the overwhelming motherly feelings I am suppose to be empowered with? Where is it? I am little confused because does this mean like I am not ready or what. Well that won't even mean much if I am or I am not ready because the reality is that you are there and you are coming soon. I have a lot of things to get done so that I am ready to enjoy my time with you. I really don't know why I do this to myself. It's like a set of to-do list I have in my head and once that is done then and then only would I be able to enjoy my life and my time--fully satisfied otherwise there is a looming undeserving emotion attached to me. 

Although, the reality is that we will always have something to do. There is always something left to be done because that's what life is all about, as time passes comes along some work to be done otherwise we will be bored as heck. There is two ways we can take this; one, with days full of stress and tiredness and frustration of the things we have to do and completely forget about enjoying our time and life and being unhappy, unsatisfied and cruel to ourselves or two; take one day at a time, get things done as we come across them, appreciate ourselves for everything accomplished and move on taking new adventures, learning from it and treating ourselves with love and respect we truly deserve. 

With a new baby growing inside me, yes, I am a tad bit more under pressure to accomplish my goals but I have to be realistic and real with my priorities. Everything changes with time and now baby Boo is my priority, he/she deserves stress-free space in my body to grow and develop in and come to this world healthy and happy and fulfilled. Meanwhile, I have to be kind to myself and not put myself under so much pressure of getting things done. I feel, I do not give myself enough credit of how hardworking I am. I will from now start to give myself that credit and appreciate my growth that is actually through my own hardwork and dedication. I am a proud woman and soon a proud momma. 

Baby Boo and I --one

 i knew it had happened but i just wanted to give myself sometime off before i could expose myself to this life changing event. finally took the test and it came back positive and there was the evidence. you had started to grow inside me. what an overwhelming emotion took over me. with everything else like work studying going on and now there is you. everything else automatically has to become a later priority. a enhanced motivation to be better for you ignited inside me. i  will have you at a blink of an eye and all responsibility will not double but triple and quadriple. for myself, i always felt someone who is still "kid-like" i guess that time is done now and we gotta grow up because time is moving and it is moving fast. everything is changing and i am scared but i know your daddy will be the most helpful and sweetest one through this and get me through this. these 9 months i hope i can grow enough so that i am good enough for you.