Lust to have it all or to go for a vacation

 the driving factor in life can be multiple things. family, friends, goals and that neverending lust to have the glorious life of financial independence- freedom from debt and stress. as soon as i was born i feel all i can remember is learning. from eating to learning not to pee in bed. learn to walk and talk. talk respectfully by the way- there is a way to talk- i think this is basically reflected by how the world by that i mean people around us talk- if they yell- we think thats normal. if they cuss we think thats normal too. now 27 years later, i am still learning. there is so much left to learn and accomplish. the best or worst thing is that we need evidence. we need evidence of our success- this can be our career or anything. anything that people can see- people can see on social media. new house? car? even if we take a good vacation to Bali. these are the things people want to see to decide that yes, this person is doing well and is "successful". i can be home and successful but can be still perceived as "not doing well". its honestly all about perception. to be honest, no matter how much i deny it- perceptions are out there non-stop to get us. if not others then it can be our own. we can be our own worst enemy right. just as i said the lust to have it all will never stop. while on the path to have it all- life can sometimes be miserable. stuck in the same routine, every-single-moment-of-every-single-day. obviously because we cant take that vacation to Bali because we are either too busy or too broke. i would rather say "financially careful" than broke because lets face it some of us, if we wanted to we could take the vacation but apparently security if more important than vacations. most of us we have to decide which happiness we actually want in life- keep riding the uber or buy a car- if have a car then the fuel cost, maintenance, insurance and what not. i think this is what 20s and probably 30s are build for- we are still young so the stress is handled- not as well as we want it to but its handled. we are all basically full time carpenters. we build. we build our education, then relationships, career, houses, change career, study more. apart from the 7-8 hours we sleep i think the rest is spent in building- ah sometimes i wish i was a kid and as i wrote that i got a nervous shrill go down my spine because being a kid still means we have to grow up. cannot escape the building no matter what.